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Friends only [Apr. 28th, 2006|02:44 pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | Dance, Dance - FOB ] "Dance, Dance" She says she's no good with words but I'm worse Barely stuttered out "A joke of a romantic" or stuck to my tongue Weighed down with words too over-dramatic Tonight it's "it can't get much worse" Vs. "no one should ever feel like.." I'm two quarters and a heart down And I don't want to forget how your voice sounds These words are all I have so I'll write them So you need them just to get by Dance, Dance We're falling apart to half time Dance, Dance And these are the lives you'd love to lead Dance, this is the way they'd love If they knew how misery loved me You always fold just before you're found out Drink up its last call Last resort But only the first mistake and I... I'm two quarters and a heart down And I don't want to forget how your voice sounds These words are all I have so I'll write them So you need them just to get by Why don't you show me the little bit of spine You've been saving for his mattress, love Dance, Dance We're falling apart to half time Dance, Dance And these are the lives you'd love to lead Dance, this is the way they'd love If they knew how misery loved me Why don't you show me the little bit of spine You've been saving for his mattress (mattress, mattress) I only want sympathy in the form of you crawling into bed with me Dance, Dance We're falling apart to half time Dance, Dance And these are the lives you'd love to lead Dance this is the way they'd love (way they'd love) Dance this is the way they'd love (way they'd love) Dance this is the way they'd love If they knew how misery loved me Dance, Dance Dance, Dance Dance, Dance Dance, Dance link 5 comments|post comment

Round 2 - For Randy. [Mar. 29th, 2006|01:01 am] [ mood | amused. ] [ music | None ] Rules: Step 1: Put your MP3 player or whatever on random. Step 2: Post the first line from the first 20 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song. Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from. Step 4: Strike out the songs when someone guesses correctly. 1. Every boys the same, since I've been in the 7th grade. 2. I could stay awake, just to hear you breathing. 3. Hey man, I'm alive I'm taking each day one night at a time. 4. AM I more than you bargined for yeah, oh I've been dying to tell you anything you wanna hear, cause that's just who I am this week. 5. Sometimes I feel I've got to, run away, I've got to, get away. 6. Met a girl, thought she was grand fell in love, found out first hand went well for a week or two then it all came unglued. 7. Just gimme the gees an we be clubbin yow. Gal a make wi please and we be thuggin' now. 8. I was so high I did not recognize The fire burning in her eyes The chaos that controlled my mind. 9. Hey Pretty Baby With The High Heels On You Give Me Fever Like I've Never, Ever Known. 10. If I could have my wasted days back Would I use them to get back on track? Stop to warm at karmas burning Or look ahead, but keep on turning? 11. I wonder if we'll smile in our coffins while loved ones Mourn the day, the absence of our faces, living,laughing, Eyes awake. Is this too much for them to take? 12. See the broken man torn and twisted in grief Screaming to the sky in pain and disbelief. 13. Call me good call me bad call me anything you want to baby. 14. Can't explain all the feelings that you're making me feel My heart's in overdrive and you're behind the steering wheel. 15. I know you like me, I know ya do, that's why whenever I'm around she's all over you. 16. I'm so tired of being here Suppressed by all my childish fears And if you have to leave I wish that you would just leave. 17. A hundred days have made me older Since the last time that I saw your pretty face A thousand lies have made me colder. 18. I don't know what cha heard about me, but a bitch can't get a dollar outta me. 19. Gotta change my answering machine, now that I'm alone. 20. Is it still me that makes you sweat? link 6 comments|post comment

.... [Jan. 9th, 2006|04:41 pm] [ mood | tired ] *Cough* Ok, wwe have lost the plot? I think so. Making Edge champ? Wow...I was watching last night and i'm like what in the blue ...omg! It was all over fast and it wasn't that exciting it was actually pretty messed up. Now, all that needs to be done is Randy winning the Rumble, say he wants Edge ( Not in the homo way..you perverts) and kick his fucking ass and take his title. But is that gonna happen? Probably not. Umm what else...Oh yeah I have major pissy friends at the moment. They seem to not like me for the fact that, Cena lost and I didn't really care. I mean, he's not in my list of major favorites so why would I? Idk but whatever they'll get over it. Also, my awesome friend Randy, well he is AWESOME!! You should add his myspace. K? Good. link 3 comments|post comment

Woah! [Jan. 8th, 2006|05:57 pm] [ mood | cheerful ] I really really really hate people. Well, some anyways. I got online and got e-mails telling me I had comments and messages on Myspace waiting for me. One message was from someone named Bob. I don't know a Bob, nor do I have a Bob on my friends list. I figured it was another random message I get most of the time saying something about Randy, since he's my favorite wrestler, or something about my banners, saying "I give you props" ect. No, this message wasn't anything like that. In fact it was humorous to say the least. It said.. "You're a filthy slut. You're baby is ugly and so are you." I sat there for a few thinking what the fuck is this dude talking about. Then I realised. I have my defult picture of me and my baby cousin Grace. She's almost one. He thought she was mine, and I'm a filthy slut for that. Well, I am 20 years old, I can have a baby yet she isn't mine, she's family. He called me dumb too..Uh yeah he spelt Collage like COLAGE! I was like, "And I'm the dumb one? Go play with the traffic kthx." He didn't reply lol The other person that annoyed me majorly was Chris Masterbates. Yeah yeah I know he's a wrestler and it's his job blah blah but if you know me you'll know I am so very protective of Randy Orton. Well, Masterbates thought it would be "Cool" to say the following at the NYR Press Conference.."It is MY destiny to become youngest World Heavyweight Champion at New Years Revolution." Ummmmm excuse me? Who used that line 2 years ago? The one Randy Orton is who, and you think you can use it for yourself? I don't think so. Get a new promo line Masterbates. link 1 comment|post comment

Friends [Dec. 17th, 2005|03:20 am] [ mood | crushed ] Friends is a funny word in my opinion. I mean, you think you have friends who you know trust you and that you can count on and then suddenly it's all been a lie. A total lie. I use the term friends lightly now. I only know of three of them maybe four I can count on all the time. They never ask me to choose, defend my actions and they accept me. Tonight I got upset over something I realised wasn't my fault. I shouldn't have been upset so I talked to my best friend. He told me not to listen and to realise what I knew was the truth even if certain people didn't think it was. I was told by this friend to show I didn't care what people thought I knew or more importanly WHO I knew. It didn't matter as long as I knew I was right and I knew that I have a close friendship with the person in question. It's total bullshit and I'm over it now. Thanks for my friend who made me see that though. Also tonight my other best friend made me tell someone I had a crush on them. It wasn't a bad thing, he likes me back. Not enough to be with me though. But oh well. You win some you lose some right? link post comment

No longer a *Wax virgin* Lol [Aug. 31st, 2005|09:38 pm] [ mood | tired ] I am sooo tired. Lol Yesterday I went to Zoey's house, her nephew was 4 last week so i took him his b-day presents. Her mum, my aunt, made me have a glass of wine, lol. I hadn't eaten so it went to my head. We sat around talking about god knows what and laughing our asses off. Today I was super bored, and I'm sick of the internet. Always the same, stupid people IM'ing me, and i never want to talk to those. So I went next door, we played PS2, Singstar. It's a singing game, lots of fun. There was me, anna-maira, christina, netty, owen, lauren, jessica, jason and rose. lol too many. We also had a thunderstorm, it was actually pretty bad. Lol. Screaming girls isn't good. I had to go out in it. First time waxing my legs today. OH MY GOD! Let me tell you, it hurt like a bitch. I mean really. I was cussing all the words i could think of Lol. But I am no longer and WAX VIRGIN! Yay! Anyways, I'm bored. Melissa link post comment

*Sigh* [Aug. 28th, 2005|08:11 pm] [ mood | bored ] I am so bored. I've been online for 2 hours now and no one has bothered to talk to me. =( Idk maybe ppl just don't wanna talk to me today, either way idc. I've been making graphics I'm so bored. I am not going to IM anyone though, I always have to IM first, and I refuse to do it now, only because it feels like people only talk to me because I IM'd them, not because they really want to. link post comment

weird lol [Aug. 27th, 2005|07:08 pm] [ mood | cheerful ] Well today is a boring day. Nothing to do at all. I'm talking on aim to ppl, Charlie being one of them, he's just come back out of the blue to mess my life up again probably. Charlie is a long story so I won't get into it, but see I loved him and he broke my heart a long time ago, and just when I seem to be getting over it he comes back and messes with me again. Oh well. So ok my dad said he saw zoey yesterday when he went to her house, and he asked her why shes ignoring me n she said she wasn't n that she had no credit to text me so my dads like ur mum has a phone, if u wanted to go over u just gotta text her and ur welcome to so ok i was like this is true, i am not texting her all the time, she wants to come over she can ask me cause my dad said she's getting bored alone all the time. I miss her though lots, and even I have to admit I do need her at times. We had the best times ever and i miss them all, she's my best friend forever we're just going through a funk right now, idk maybe we'll sort it out, I hope we do. Like for my birthday when I was 18, she got me some really cute things, one of them was a set of best friend keyrings. I have one half she has the other half and when you put the together they say 'best friends forever' well i have mine on my key and so does she, so maybe she misses me too. Who knows. So also my bx boyfriend's new wife...yes I talk to her has been acting weird. She asked me for pictures of me naked. *Raises* Eyebrow. Yes like I'm going to do that. I have guy friends that are perverted n all and none of them, two in particular have ever asked me for anything like that. I mean, if they did i wouldn't do it anyways but ya know. She's just fucking weird. Everything about them is weird. Lol. Anyways gonna go watch tv now. Melissa link post comment

*Updates* [Aug. 19th, 2005|12:48 am] [ mood | flirty ] I haven't updated this thing in forever...well ummm ok soooo I don't have a boyfriend anymore. We broke up, but we're still friends so it's all good. I love him still and I'm glad I didn't lose him totally. I haven't done much god I'm so boring lol I did see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory on tuesday..good movie. I love Johnny Deep he's like so awesome and funny. Really I have like nothing to say Lol sooo i'll just go back to my flirting and update when I do. Love ya link post comment

Ugh! [Jul. 22nd, 2005|05:32 pm] [ mood | amused ] Today was fun! Lol yeah sure. I went to town w/ my mum to pick up my glasses *Groans* I am wearing them now, I have to if I want my eyes to get better. So I got them and then my mum got me some clothes and then she got me this Really gorgeous necklace that I love and then I got Ciara'a cd. We came home and I read some of my Harry Potter book. Nothing exciting there, and then I got online and talked to my friend RK. I told him bout my glasses and he wanted to see, so I showed him and he was like.."Cute Melissa, you look sexy Lol. But you kinda look like a librarian" I was like "Umm thanks?" Lol So I look like a sexy Librarian. And omg running a forum is hard work. Zel pissed me and Nads off this morning. She Pm'd me and asked me to visit her forum, which I did and I'm glad I did now, because well she had taken nadia's fic that she worked hard on, from MY FORUM and posted it on hers..not only that but she hadn't credited Nads at all. She passed it off as her own. Then she stole my Randomness thread thing! Then she stole my Keepers idea for Mods names. So me and Nads joined her forum and we are recruting. We thought you might like to join and corupt her forum so much she bans us, therefor I have to ban her from mine. OH and me and nads decided to fuck with her on the nate forum. I reset how many posts she has..she had 541 she now had 50! Lmao! link post comment

Oh Joy [Jul. 10th, 2005|11:30 pm] [ mood | bored ] *Yawns* Gosh I am soooo tired. Not sleepy tired but bored tired. I'm online..idk why because for some reason lately I get bored of it easily. I dont get bored of talking to people just bored of sitting here talking. I like to be active in things and sometimes talking isnt being active. I have a creativeness about me so I need things to do or I'm really bored. Today was just like that..boring. I'm bored now. I might go watch tv later. To top it all off it's hot here, oh joy! link post comment

Dont fuck with me! [Jul. 9th, 2005|08:33 pm] [ mood | amused ] Omg! I could not sleep last night when I got offline. Ok so I got offline at like 3am or something like that because I was tired and so I'm in my bedroom, taking my hair out because it was up and clicking on one of my favorite cd's that I like to listen to as I fallin asleep and I get into bed, get all snuggled and close my eyes. The last thing I see before I close my eyes is Randy and John because I have posters of them above my bed, huge posters too Lol So ok, I'm just fallin asleep when I hear names being called outside my window. I was like Wtf it's like 3:15am and ppl are calling me? So I get out of bed and go to my window and see about 5 or 6 boys sitting on the pavement outside my house. All of em are like 14,15 or 16 and a couple of em are drunk as hell. So they all have their cell phone's out and I was like "I dont know any of them...do I?" Lol so I continue to watch but they are just sitting there, so I figure they don't know me and were just being noisy. So I go back to bed and get all snuggled again when one of em shouts like REALLY LOUD "KELLY!" and I was like Ok wtf now. So I get out of bed again and go to my window and they are all like yelling at this girl that live across the street. She's like 16 and it's like 3:30am wtf are they still doing out. So I'm sat at my window watching em and then cause my window's open I can hear everything they are saying. and they start going on about "Oh dave boned Emma didnt you dave?" and then "Yeah but I shagged Mikayla first and I aint got no Johnny's left now." "Oh that alright you can shag without one." Then they start shouting for Kelly again and one of em goes "If you want a good shag go to Kelly, she's good at it." So I'm like Where the fuck is Kelly's dad? So then they knock on her door and she comes out with her friend! AT 4AM! So by this time I'm so tired I turned into a bitch. and they were being loud again so I opened my window and shouted out "STFU!" and so they all look over at me and one of the boys grabs himself and tell me to "Suck on this." So I closed the window, pulled on my jeans, tied my hair up again and went downstairs. I opened the front door and walked to the end of my drive and called the boy over who had told me to"Suck on this." Being drunk he came over straight away with a smirk on his face, he probably thought he'd scored haha yeah right. When he got closer I leaned in like I was gonna kiss him and then grabbed his balls really hard and squeezed "Next time you tell me to suck on this..I'll fucking break it." I let him go and walked away. Well I can tell you that they didn't make another sound for the rest of their time outside. Lmao How good am I. - Melissa link post comment

Friends... [Jul. 8th, 2005|10:55 pm] [ mood | cheerful ] Today has been a good day. Boring but good. I wrote some and then aaron left to take a nap because he was tired so I decided to watch a movie. Yes RK I WATCHED NAPOLEON DYNAMIE ALL THE WAY THROUGH! hahaha and guess what...I EVEN LAUGHED AT LIKE LOTS OF PARTS! Lmao GOSH! Anyways I have known most of my online friends for a long ass time now, some over a year some coming up to a year some over a year. Those I have known over a year are special to me, Jason was my very first online friend and I want to meet him some day because he's awesome I've known him almost 2 years. Brittany was and still is my best girl online friend. I love her and I wanna meet her too. Then there's Ethian and Nathan who I have known almost a year. Ethian is my best guy friend I love him Lol he's a nerd. Nathan is my bro ya know, he's like Familia to me, my lil bro. Then I have all the peeps I met this year. I met most of em because of the forum I run for Nate, and I love most of them Lol. One more than others though Lol. Anyhoo, that's enough of my ramblings. Layta Tator! link post comment

What is the world coming to? [Jul. 7th, 2005|02:45 pm] [ mood | worried ] SOOO! London was bombed by terrorists today. I was sooo scared though because a train going from Bristol to London stopped over in my town and had to be evacuated because of a suspected BOMB! I was like wtf! This is messed up. I mean ok, London expected something like this after 9/11 because they threatened it lots of times but nothing came about it. Then after the General Election they thought it would happen again but it didnt because London was on high alert. So yesterday we got chosen to host the 2012 Olympics in London and then today...this happened! I am kinda glad my dad over slept this morning because he was supposed to be there, in London just around the corner from the first bomb. I was like *Thanks God* and I'm glad someone was watching over him today. I'm not gonna lie, I am scared now a little because of this whole thing, and I was like omg what if we get bombed. I want everyone to know that I love them so so much, esp Aaron. I love my best friends and I love my family. On a brighter note Zoey is coming over in a little while so yay! Lol I can't wait because I haven't seen her in a while and she is like the most awesomeness friend of ever when she's here. Layta Peeps! link post comment

Shopping...Fun fun [Jul. 6th, 2005|04:26 pm] [ mood | loved ] I went shopping today! yay! I love to shop. I got alot of stuff Lol well it is me and ok so I'll tell you. I went to this little shop and got my Raw and Smackdown Mags and another wrestling mag just because it had a poster of John in the middle LOL. Then I went to the optitions to make an eye appointment and so I have to have that next wednesday at 10:30am! Like way early Lol. So I might be getting glasses that day. Then I went to HMV and got Jerry Maguire on dvd and Pink Panther box set on dvd. I love the Pink Panther. Then I went to the Body Shop. A place where they sell like all shampoo's and Body washes and scented stuff Love it there. I got 2 lip glosses. Strewberry and Watermelon flavor. Yum! Lol and then I went to a place called Woolworths and got this adorable Heffalump cuddly toy and also a Cabbage Patch Kid. I collect them and everytime I go there I have to get a new one. So I already have 2 their names are Daniella Lylla and Lindsay Jayde and today I got Holly Rebecca. Hehe! So then I came home and had lunch and then came online where I had like 6 e-mails Lol and one was from my boyfrind who is soooooooo corny but soooo adorable Lol He kinda re-wrote an old Take That song for me and Awww it was cute Lol. Anyways he's online now so I'mma go talk to him! Catcha later! link post comment

Gosh! [Jul. 5th, 2005|05:36 pm] [ mood | hyper ] Lmao God if RK reads this shit he'll be like "Hahhha! quoting Nepoleon Dynamite!" Which sucks because so does the movie..but like omg I love the one liners they rock..and I'm cool I'm allowed to say em. I am like soooooo bored! I've tried writing but I got bored Lol and my arm started to ache so I stopped. No one is online to talk to...so I'm bored. I've decided to listen to my music and put on a singing show lmao! I am a really good singer.......HA! yeah right but oh well. I'm talking to Ethian now though so yay! and yay again because my cousin is coming over Thursday and I've missed her!!! Woah how amazing is it that HBK is heel. I was like OMG! I honestly didn't think they would turn him heel but WOO! Go Shawn because Hogan was getting on my nerves! I can like shawn now because I like love heels. And chris Jericho looked hella fine last night! LOL link post comment

Craziness.. [Jul. 5th, 2005|04:22 pm] [ mood | happy ] I'm so bored right now I'm being crazy. Me and Zoey have this little thing we like to do to keep us from being us..and from being bored. I'm thinking of writing a fic about one of our role play adventures. I need to talk to her first though because she is apart of the characters as I am. If she says yes I'll be getting to work on it..although I dont know which one I am going to use..we have so many, I'll ask her which one she wants to use..we could like do a short version of different ones which would be extra cool. I'd love that. Ok, so i'mma go and finish writing now, so I'll be back later. link post comment

Numerology! [Jul. 5th, 2005|01:13 am] [ mood | cheerful ] Numerology - personal number: 6 Emotional and nurturing, you gain most pleasure through familial relationships. Your goal is to prioritise your own needs and not feel guilty! Love: You are a loving and loyal partner but you don't vocalise your feelings enough and this could lead to feelings of resentment in the long-term. Family: You tend to react in an over-emotional way to family tensions and can be a little panicky, especially about children's health. Fashion: You are probably more interested in Baby Gap than in adult fashion, even if you don't have your own kids yet! You would rather have the perfect capsule wardrobe than an extensive one, so invest in good quality and classic style. Finances: Usually responsible and practical with cash, you are sometimes subject to massive retail binges – purely as therapy, of course. Try to even out this boom and bust spending pattern for more long-term security. Career: Your nurturing nature means that you excel in roles where you can help others achieve their full potential. You are also an excellent team leader but you must be careful not to overreact under pressure. Life goals: Your giving nature means that you will find the most long-term happiness in your homelife. But don't let any secret, personal dreams be subsumed by domestic bliss, as you can have both. Woah! How much that is like me! Cool bananas link post comment

The Boogeyman... [Jul. 4th, 2005|11:00 pm] [ mood | dorky ] Ok so ignore the last entry if you read it...I was like stressin over nothing I guess. I actually talked to one of my "Brothers" earlier and he made me feel better about things. So on that note..I think I might text that friend I was talking about and make up w/ him, because I think he doesn't deserve anything that has happened today. So ok..I watched movies today! Lol I love my movies earlier I watched Hitch and omg that was soooooooooo good. I have a few favorite quotes from that movie already and I've only watched it once. Then I just got back from watching The Boogeyman...creepy shit right there. I mean do you believe in the boogeyman? I think I do now..because ok..maybe he does exist but only to those who let him ya know..Like ok, if you chose to believe that he lives in your closet's or under your beds then he will live there..but if you chose to believe he maybe exists and that he only comes out when it's dark then it's ok. But like in the movie he has the ability to make lights go out so then your screwed right? Well not exactly..because it you let him know you fear then you are..if you close your eyes and count to 5 it goes away..well at least that's what Timmy said in the movie. Anyways, I really think I need to stop over thinking shit because I don't make sence and I confuse people reading this...Oh well that's me, love me for it or not I won't change. link post comment

Bordom... [Jul. 4th, 2005|07:21 pm] [ mood | bored ] God..I am so bored. I have been online for a while..I watched a movie earlier but that's about it so far. I'm watching Raw later w/ my best friend at the moment Idk if anyone else will be on to watch w/ me but oh well...right now I could care less. I'm sick of feeling like the bad one in relationships when I'm not. I'm not saying the other side is but I'm not at all...and it seems like certain ppl dont see it that way. One of my best friends came on today and I had my away message up so he texted me and I didnt text him back because I didnt have enough credit on my phone. So then he called me and I didnt answer..I blanked him so when he finally did get ahold of me ...I told him I couldnt talk to him for a while because it seems someone has a problem with it and isn't telling me straight. So I kinda upset him because he cant understand why he cant talk to me or why I cant or wont talk to him..and it sucks but I guess it'll all come together soon. link post comment

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